In a recent post (The Lies I Tell Myself), I shared what it is like to struggle with anxiety.
It was a hard post to write, and I still sometimes want to delete it and just hide from it. But, it is a part of what makes me the person I am, and if you’re going to judge me for it, that’s on you.
For most people, the thoughts that anxiety causes don’t make sense. Or they really don’t understand what the thought process is. Well, thanks to Sara Bareilles, I can offer a small glimpse of what types of thoughts go through my head when I have to meet new people, or really just interact with people in general.
I stick with real things,
Usually facts and figures.
When information’s in its place,
I minimize the guessing game.
I don’t like guessing games.
Or when I feel things,
Before I know the feelings.
How am I supposed to operate,
If I’m just tossed around by fate?
Like on an unexpected date?
Sara Bareilles “When He Sees Me”
Aside: This song is from a musical that she wrote the music and lyrics for called “Waitress“. It just did a short run in Boston and will be hitting Broadway starting next March. A selection of songs from this show was recently released, and I took a short break from listening to “Hamilton” on repeat to listen to it. Both are really good albums and I want to try to get to NYC to see both.